Oh Me.

More and more I realize I need people to chide me for motivational purposes. ¬†If only I could get into the habit of taunting myself when I think negatively or when I don’t take 30 minutes a day to exercise, or when I don’t sit down and write something for that matter.

In terms of New Year’s Resolutions, I deemed I would be more DEMONSTRATIVE. ¬†So far, so good there, although it’s creating a negative impact in some areas. ¬†When you express yourself, you accept more consequences. ¬†You also realize through focusing on your feelings how miserable certain things *cough* non-challenging/emotionally draining work *cough* make you. ¬†While being less demonstrative of my feelings, it was much easier to brush things off. ¬†Now the same things are making me edgy. ¬†Nothing worthwhile is ever easy, and while it is tiring to remind myself of that, I will have to. ¬†And when I can’t, I expect everyone I know to help me out. ¬†COME ON. ¬†I helped you once, probably. ¬†It’s the very least – oh, you will? ¬†Thanks bud. ¬†I’ve always said you’re the greatest.

But yeah, Wii Fit jabs me with “Too busy to work out yesterday, eh?” and that’s all it takes. ¬†Now if I could just have somebody say that to me in every aspect of my life… ¬†not the working out thing, but applied contextually. ¬† Like I wish the dog would say to me, in a clumsy dog voice, “I didn’t mean to bite you while you were wiping my paws down. ¬†PS, you missed a spot, are you okay with having to mop that up later? ¬†If not, everyone will judge you!”

All right.  Picture time.

garden variety

About Nikki

I've been writing since I was in kindergarten where I Crayola-markered an epic tale of a tiger and a balloon on a stack of lined papers folded into a booklet and stapled along the edge (carefully, and by my teacher). I love DIY, sewing, folksy music, animals and getting out to look at and listen to nature.
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